goodbye 2011

My final post of 2011.
I think i like 2011.
A year of transformation.
I'll miss you, 2011!
Hello, && welcome to 2012!

end of 2011...

Thought i shall sum up 2011 for this post.
Well... in a nutshell, 2011 went in a blink of an eye.
I can still remember the beginning of 2011 and now i cant believe that its going to end.
Why does the time fly??

It was a significant year for me. Some unfortunate events happened. A big barrier in my life was removed... (Is it a good thing??.... time will tell!! :P) Some unique experiences... Met a lot of new people. Life was more of a roller coaster ride in 2011.

I hope the year ahead is a much better one.

Happy New Year! May the year ahead bring peace, prosperity and love to the entire world!

beach... after a loooong time.. =)

Merry Christmas!!

'twas a good day i should say =).
Let's start from the morning. Woke up at 5.30am to go to temple with aunt and cuzzies. Reached temple at abt 6.30am. It was extremely cold!! When we spoke, it looked like as if we were smoking!! We could actually see the water vapour condensing in the air when our warm breath came in contact with the cold air outside. First time in my life am i experiencing such a thing! =)
Well the temple was a very old temple. There weren't much people at that time. It felt good being there. It had a very old and authentic feeling. Since it was not crowded, there was a very calm atmosphere. That's what i like about Temples and Churches. There is a calm ambiance there. (Didn't get an opportunity to go to other religious worship places.. if i do get opportunity to go, i would love to visit... =) )
The comes the highlight of the day! On the way back home from temple, I drove!! after a looong time.. i think the last time i drove was for the driving test and once i got my driving license, i didn't drive. So its almost after 10 months that i'm driving again! And the surprising thing is that i thought i forgot how to drive. But it wasn't as bad as i thought. hehe! Of course it wasn't good either. My cousin helped of course but still... i'm happy that at least i remember which is clutch, brake and accelerator! =D!
Then came back home.... then in the eve we (together with mummy) went out to the beach... for a carnival.
My most favourite place in the world... The Beach! I've been wishing to go to the beach for a loooong time. But.... but...... (*dang* here comes the word again!)
Anyways, we went there. The carnival was disappointing. There was nothing out of ordinary there. The usual stalls and rides and stuff... looked so boring... Then we went to the beach nearby. That was much better than the carnival. While walking along the beach, it reminded me so much of my friends and the time i used to spend with them and the time we used to go to the beach and how we used to enjoy ourselves.......... felt kind of emo...

well, i didnt do anything much there.. just walked along the beach in the water.
Anywayz, we went there quite late in the eve so couldnt stay too long and had to leave soon.

so much more to say... but i'm tried!.. =).... basically, had a good time.... after a loooong time... wonder when i'll get to go to the beach again.... =(!

but...

My most hated word in English Language : 'But' !
Wish there was no such word as but.. It spoils everything.
" Hey 'But', erase yourself from this world of language..." "Go away!... shhooo off..." =D!
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Isit getting colder and colder everyday??.... In the mornings, water from the tap feels like refrigerated!
If over here it feels like this, i wonder how it would be in places where it snows...

Wonder how different of a person i would be if i were born somewhere else... I wont look like this i wont speak like this... i wont have parents like this... i wont have friends like this... i wont be .... well.... i wont be ME! Hehe!
But i think of all places, my place is the best! The one and only God's own country.
Yaya... it may have lots of short comings and problems but nothing can replace my dear Ker. Its where i belong. Its where my heart and soul is.... Its where my home is....

I feel so patriotic all of a sudden!... =)!!

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The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho

Just finished reading the book The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. I would say this book was inspirational to the core! No words can express the wonder i had while reading it. Some parts of the book seemed like it was written for me... yea.. just for me. Its like as if the book was talking to me. It was too deep for me to understand everything. But i got the fundamental idea. Wish someone would explain everything that it was trying to say.
Through out the book, it was filled with exceptionally catchy and meaningful quotes.

The main character of the book is a boy called Santiago. Its about his life and how he fulfills his dreams.

Some of my favourite quotes:

• - "The only things that concerned the sheep were food and water". This line kept on repeating at least 4 or 5 times in the book. Its trying to say a lot in it...and i think i understand it too... =)

• "its the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting"

• i couldnt resist this even though its not much of a quote...

"When someone sees the same people everyday, ... they wind up becoming a part of that person's life. And then they want the person to change. If someone isnt what others want them to be, the others become angry. Everyone seems to have a clear idea of how other people should lead their lives but none about his or her own".


I think i can just go on like this.... So better stop for now.
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Maybe i should........ should i?.... a lot of ppl have told me "dont stop dreaming". And i've tried not to..... Or Did i really try not to.....??

a letter to Time

i cant believe that tomorrow is Friday! Gosh!... is time flying or what???
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Dear Time,

pleeeze slow down.... Y are you in such a hurry??? The only thing you do is run around and fly around and make my life miserable! Y dont you take some rest? No one appreciates your constant hard work anyway....

yours loving friend.

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Sometimes things are better the way it is... even if it seems bad. .... hopefully??....

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Life almost always gave me chocolate ice-cream in a filthy glass!
Can i complain?... no obviously not.... it gave me chocolate ice-cream you know...
But its my fault that i dont have the heart to eat it from that unclean glass... Its all my fault... everything is my fault... i've got no one to blame...
or isit really my fault....??... maybe it is meant to be that way... maybe it's actually a blessing in disguise. Maybe.

source: http://www.123rf.com/photo_4294885_one-chocolate-ice-cream-sundae-isolated-on-white-with-copy-space.html

*sniff sniff*

*sniff*
...
*Aaachhooo*...
*snnniiifff*

=( !

Mind Your Language

Thought i shall share this for today! I had felt like Mr Brown so many times in class! Maybe a movie can be made out of the experiences in my institute =)

*Hopping to be unrolled* =D!!
*silly bus* =D!!

My favourite is Ali Nadeem! && i like the 'Por Favore' guy he's stupidly funny!
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Its lunar eclipse today... =)!
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"Regrets"

'Angels and Demons' seems exactly like 'The Lost Symbol'... -.- ... but i shall read for the sake of reading... reading helps me to improve my eng!
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got this email from a friend... really caught my attention...

The Top 5 Regrets

1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of meThis was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people have had not honored even a half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.

It is very important to try and honor at least some of your dreams along the way.
From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.

2. I wish I didn’t work so hard - This came from every male patient that I nursed. They missed their children’s youth and their partner’s companionship.

Women also spoke of this regret. But as most were from an older generation, many of the female patients had not been breadwinners. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.By simplifying your lifestyle and making conscious choices along the way, it is possible to not need the income that you think you do. And by creating more space in your life, you become happier and more open to new opportunities, ones more suited to your new lifestyle.

3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings - Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.

As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming.

We cannot control the reactions of others. However, although people may initially react when you change the way you are by speaking honestly, in the end it raises the relationship to a whole new and healthier level. Either that or it releases the unhealthy relationship from your life. Either way, you win.

4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends - Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.

It is common for anyone in a busy lifestyle to let friendships slip. But when you are faced with your approaching death, the physical details of life fall away. People do want to get their financial affairs in order if possible. But it is not money or status that holds the true importance for them. They want to get things in order more for the benefit of those they love. Usually though, they are too ill and weary to ever manage this task. It all comes down to love and relationships in the end. That is all that remains in the final weeks, love and relationships.

5. I wish that I had let myself be happierThis is a surprisingly common one.
Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice.

They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.When you are on your deathbed, what others think of you is a long way from your mind. How wonderful to be able to let go and smile again, long before you are dying.
Life is a choice. It is YOUR life. Choose consciously, choose wisely, choose honestly. Choose happiness.

By Bronnie WareI've always had regret #1... But the problem is i'm not living my life like how i want it to be... neither am i living like how others want me to be... At least if they are happy, i can have a satisfaction that at least i make someone happy even if i am not. But that's not the case here...

I'm not happy, they're not happy... then who's happy???
God, are you happy??... =D!
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On a lighter note, i didnt realize that today is Friday!.. i thought that it was still Tuesday or Wednesday. I am loosing track of days and weeks... i seem to be floating though life.. without realizing where i'm going...
Note to myself: Come back!! Come back to yourself!
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monotonous

Life seems monotonous... guess its high time i adjusted with it!......... until............ until............ forever???
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Some people still live in the 11th century... either that or fear and guilt has taken over him...
The more you try to run away from problem the harder it will hit you. It's not possible to keep children like how a mother hen keeps her chicks under her wings... world has changed.
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Bro brought the book Angels and Demons. Just started reading it. I realize that almost all of Dan Brown's book has a similar theme and a similar way of writing... its interesting no doubt.. but... but... i dunno... it gets boring by the time i read the third book??...
The first book i read written by him was 'The Lost Symbol' and i thought it was the best book i have ever read... then recently i read 'The Da Vinci Code'. Frankly speaking, i didn't really like it as much. In the beginning, it was nice i would say but towards the middle and the end wasn't as interesting. It was lagging too much... Mystery after mystery.... i somehow lost my interest. I read for the sake of knowing the end not because it was interesting.
It seemed more like a Malayalam detective movie. At last the culprit was the one who had always been with the hero! =D!
Now that i have just started reading Angels and Demons, i have a feeling that it's going to be almost similar to the other two books. Let's see...
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Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day!

good to be back..

Back to blogging after a loooong time... =)... ....... but i've got no idea what to blog about! Maybe i should start blogging on regular basis... should i ??.. should i???...

Reading back on my previous posts make me miss blogging... && reminded me of soo many people and things that happened. I miss my teacher and my little students... wonder how they are... && my dear friends!!

I think i'm in some kind of a self imposed self quarantine... even when i want to get out of myself i just cant... When is this going to end??????

Sometimes i feel that i am missing out on a lot of things in life... but other times i feel that i am the only person in the world who gets to have/understand these unique experiences...
But one thing is for sure... everything happens for a reason... be it big or small, there will be a reason behind every cause.