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Saturday, November 30, 2013

Exactly 1 month from 2day.........

The same day next month, its going to be another me... in a totally new place....  with completely new people....

What do i feel?..........................
Happy? : Yes
Scared? : Yes
Sad? : Yes
Nervous? : Yes

Well, i can just go on.......................

Another brand new change...... I'm sure i'll be able to handle it this time round.... 'cos now i know that i'm not alone.. anymore...........






Saturday, November 23, 2013

Touch wood............

All these while, i used to save my tears for my pillow... It used to absorb all of it and dry up in the morning...
But now my pillow has ears to listen and mouth to console..

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I'm glad i left everything to God... He knows what's best for me....
He denied me many things to give me something great...
I'll always be grateful to Him for that... Always.....

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Thursday, November 14, 2013

i miss them or they miss me...

Today i dreamt of my grandpa and grandma..... Usually when i dream of ppl who are no more in reality, it would be like as if they are alive in the dream... Means i will be talking and interacting with them in such a way that they are alive and well...

But today, it was different. I saw my grandpa. He was looking younger and healthier than he was when he was towards his last days...
When i saw him, i immediately realized that he's not alive actually... yet i was not afraid, in fact, i felt happy that i could see him again. I asked him somethings like how he is.. and so on... and he was talking to me casually and in a very easy manner "i'm fine dear" etc....
When he was alive, he never spoke to me like that... he never expressed his affection for us children... =)
And then i asked how grandma was and he said she was fine and someother things ... which i cant remember... and then i wished i could see grandma..
And suddenly, grandpa faded out of focus and grandma replaced him... I felt really happy and i spoke to her for sometime...She was also looking much healthier and younger than when i last saw her alive..
i cant remember much of what i spoke to her.... And then i woke up....................

I guess dreams are one big blessing for us humans.................. we get to see ppl and things that we truly wish to see..... without having to depend on any other technological device..

I dont know if this dream means i miss them or they miss me.....
i've got no idea...

But whatever it is, i'm happy that i got to see them.....