Just a fraction of a second

It only takes a fraction of a second to feel utterly worthless.

Why am i letting other people decide how i feel???

Over days and weeks i would preach in my facebook posts about how you should take control of your emotions and stay strong and be who you are and all kinds of crap and within seconds a mere change of an expression from a stranger can make me feel depressed.

That feeling of having something heavy deep down in your stomach... the urge to just lie in bed... the feeling of having the urge to wail out in emotional pain but being numb instead... having no appetite to eat even when you are starving... the physical aches and pains for no reasons known.

What makes it worse is having a little angel hovering around you with so much of love and enthusiasm but not being able to reciprocate the same kind of love back.

Honestly sometimes i feel that i shouldn't have had her. If only she had been born to a better mother..or rather a better human being. How i wish............

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Love is too pure to be connected to any relationship

I know life wouldn't turn out exactly the way you want it, but.. come on.. at least close to it??
I am sick and tired of everything now. When i say everything, i mean every single thing. I just dread waking up now. May be i'm just going through a bad phase in life........... am i??..... When the heck have i ever gone through a good FREAKING phase?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? Oh God!!!

Now i'm sick of complaining too....


I want to write something nice.... Actually, just a while ago, an old song just started playing in my mind. It brought back some memories. But then..... It some how kind of connected me to my daughter in the end...... You know, love shouldn't be attached to any relationship it should be left on its own. Its just too pure to be connected to any relationship. The feeling of love is so pure, so God like.

Yea.. my daughter is beautiful..
Yea.. she drops nectar from her lips at times.. Haha!
Yea.. Yea she jiggles her bangles and she talks like that too... 😍
Oh God i love my daughter! 😘