Yeah yeah... I'm back. I'm back with another depressing post.
I guess I come here when I have too much going on in my mind and as usual, I have no one to share it with.
Just now I had this ache in my heart. You know that feeling of pain.. not physical pain but that extreme emotional pain that you feel.
Emotional pain is too strong such that you kind of feel the physical pain in your heart. Maybe that's where the word heartbreak or heartbroken comes from.
As each day goes by, I'm losing the motivation to live. I'm just waiting for my final day I realise.
I'm just passing each day till the day I die I guess.
The lump in my throat is getting too painful. In the past I used to be able to cry as and when I wanted without being noticed and whenever I wanted. And that used to make me feel better. A long cry used to clear my sadness, frustration and all negative feelings. But now it's not possible. With a lovely toddler tailing behind you all the time taking care of her, playing with her, solving her little problems, just being there for her has made me spend zero amount of time with myself.
Even taking care of my daughter is being compromised because of my mental state right now.
I was feeling so down in the dumbs 2 days back that I started my old habit of listening to my favourite songs.
I don't know why I'm still alive.. yea I know why.. but.. wwhhyyyy??
(Kung Fu Panda's father Mr. Ping said this.. :D ) !!
