Love is too pure to be connected to any relationship

I know life wouldn't turn out exactly the way you want it, but.. come on.. at least close to it??
I am sick and tired of everything now. When i say everything, i mean every single thing. I just dread waking up now. May be i'm just going through a bad phase in life........... am i??..... When the heck have i ever gone through a good FREAKING phase?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!? Oh God!!!

Now i'm sick of complaining too....


I want to write something nice.... Actually, just a while ago, an old song just started playing in my mind. It brought back some memories. But then..... It some how kind of connected me to my daughter in the end...... You know, love shouldn't be attached to any relationship it should be left on its own. Its just too pure to be connected to any relationship. The feeling of love is so pure, so God like.

Yea.. my daughter is beautiful..
Yea.. she drops nectar from her lips at times.. Haha!
Yea.. Yea she jiggles her bangles and she talks like that too... 😍
Oh God i love my daughter! 😘

good to be back..

Back to blogging after a loooong time... =)... ....... but i've got no idea what to blog about! Maybe i should start blogging on regular basis... should i ??.. should i???...

Reading back on my previous posts make me miss blogging... && reminded me of soo many people and things that happened. I miss my teacher and my little students... wonder how they are... && my dear friends!!

I think i'm in some kind of a self imposed self quarantine... even when i want to get out of myself i just cant... When is this going to end??????

Sometimes i feel that i am missing out on a lot of things in life... but other times i feel that i am the only person in the world who gets to have/understand these unique experiences...
But one thing is for sure... everything happens for a reason... be it big or small, there will be a reason behind every cause.

(28 Mar 09..Sat..1.48pm) .. too late...

I dunno what i'm feeling. Feels happy or a while and then the next moment feels like life has no meaning any more. I dont know what's happening to me. When is this terrible feeling going to end. Hopefully soon?... Soon.. but how soon is soon. For some people, soon will be like ..hmm.. lets see..
a few hours...
for others it would be a couple of days...
for another grp of ppl, it would be years...
So how soon is my soon?
I guess i would only know the answer for this the min b4 i die... yea?... hehe
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God is soo fair... yea really really fair. Y?.. 'cos He doesnt give us everything. He doesnt give us what we yearn for. He gives us something that we dont want but its much better than what we would like to have. So u see... its not like He wants us to be unhappy right?... Its not what we want but its so much better than that. So u see... we cant complain... Sooo clever isnt He?...

I guess life would be too boring if we get what we want all the time.
I guess in life, we have to have all kinds of experience. Yes even the not too nice ones. Like sadness, embarrassment, frustration, guilt etc etc. I guess all these would make me a better person in the future. (If i have a future that is... =) )
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Sometimes i just wish i wasn't born. Other times i thank God for letting me come to this world.
They say that everyone has a purpose for coming to this world. So what's my purpose? What do i have to do? How do i make this place a better place?
Ok let's face it ... i cant do anything.. i cant even get along with my own Mum properly. How am i going to help others?
There are soo many things that i want to do... But............. but............. *sigh*........
WHY GOD?? WHY?? WHY ME??...

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From the bottom of my heart... Take Care and Good Luck... and God Bless