still searching / weird

Still searching for the courage... i'll get it... one day... one fine day...
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Some people claim that i've got weird friends... But they're not weird, they are just like you and me. Just normal beings who wants to be treated just like everyone else. U see, i'm a person who looks inside the mind of a person not how a person is outside. It doesnt matter how the person looks on the outside, be it tall, short, dark, fair, bigger in size, smaller in size, beautiful, not so pretty...... etc etc... it doesnt matter to me at all... All that matters to me is that the person has a kind heart.. a forgiving mind.. someone who has empathy for others... not just sympathy but Empathy... And last but not least (in fact the most important) a open heart to accept other people's thoughts and believes... And i believe 2 of my best friends has these qualities. And they are NOT weird. I guess their definition of weird is - "different from other people"... If u look at it that way, Everyone is different so Everyone is weird! We're all weird... I'm weird... u r weird... haha...
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Today i thank God:
- for giving me a better day than the past 2 days...
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That's all... Take Care Everyone... =)

dark...

Future looks dark....... pitch dark..........
I dont want to go in there... i dont want to go in to that future...............
no..... i wont.............................
Shall i?..........................

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"God, You gave me everything... good things.. bad things and worse things... but You didnt give me one thing....... the courage to kill myself..."
"But its ok.... i'll get it myself..." =)

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............................................................................................................................................................................................................................. This is all i've got to say...........................

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Ouch!.. ouuch!! (T.T)... *sigh*

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"--- Some people come into our lives and when they leave, they leave their footprints in our hearts.... but some never comes in our life but owns part of our heart and take it away when they leave..."

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Today i thank God:
- for .................... erm... i dunno... for............. for........... for the food on my table (even though i've got no appetite to eat)

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Take Care everyone..............

run away!

Can i run away somewhere??.... yea... far far away from everyone and everything??... so far away that no one can reach me.......?? But then again, running away from problems are not a permanent solution rite?.. unless.................... unless........................ hmm... Sometimes i feel like i just had enough!
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Today instead of thanking God, i shall ask God smt:
- "God, would you be kind enough to take me to u? And not let me return to this earth"?...
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Take Care everyone...

sick Again!

I am sick again!... (>.<) I think my body's immunity power has been spoilt. I must start taking care of my health.... and get some fat into my body.... (>.<)!! ....

SH: "How old are you ****a*a?
Me: "20"
SH: "But u dont look like 20 u know... u look younger than that"

I dont know isit suppose to be a complement or a criticism...

'cos an incident that happened about 2 yrs ago made me realize that when ppl say u look younger, it may not always be good... hehe!...
here's what happened:

Optician: "How old are you? 11?"
Me:*shocked face* "i'm 17......................... "
Optician: *sheepish face* "Oh.... Haha ... i see"
Me: *thinking* "hmm... u need a spectacle more than me"...

So u see its not a very nice feeling when a 17 yr old is mistaken for an 11 yr old. =)
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What am i going to do for 1 month?... i feel like looking for a job. Yea just for 1 month.. Shall i?................ but ........................................................
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*sigh*.......................... *sigh* .............................. *sigh* ............ ok i must stop sigh-ing now...
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Today i thank God:
- for giving me a nicer day today than yesterday. =)
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Take Care Everyone... =)

Finally!!

Yesh!... Finally!! Over!... its all over!!... 3 years of suffering!..haha!... nono... maybe it wasnt too much of a suffering... But still ... very happy that its over... =D ..

The presentation was not too bad. The markers were ... well... happy?... at least they didnt seem angry or annoyed. 3 of us came across as too soft spoken and the leader was ok =) . I didnt think in my membership, there was anything to say so loud and stress anything in it.

Today i forgot to bring my laptop charger!!... Of all the days, i had to forget today!!... in the end L was kind enough to lend us her laptop... =) and it went well...

Anyhow, the important thing now is that IT'S OVER! *smile*

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It also means.......................................................................................................

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Now i'll have to wait for attachement and then...................... Freedom!.. or isit?........................

Hmm.............

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Today i thank God:

- for helping me cross this big barrier in life--> Today's presentation.

- for giving me a nice time b4 presentation =)

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That's all... Take Care everyone... and thank you for praying for me... =)

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OMG!

omg... omg... omg.... Oh My God................... *Butterflies in my stomach*
Project 99.99% done... Tmr(more like 2day... 'cos its already 2.00am) everything will be ok rite?... rite??... (>.<)...
oh God.. pls be there with me...
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Today i thank God:
- for helping me finish my project on time
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Take Care and pray for me everyone... (>.<)